Ok.... I think i'm getting used to life. It sucks... alot. I wish it were better. I just don't understand why God has done this to me. I'm not going to the Corn Maze on Sunday... i hope you all have fun though. It's not worth wasting money on, besides i'm too worried about life to have fun. GRRRR My life SUCKS.
i guess i'm going to the fall retreat. I almost don't want to go because it wont change anything, just another waste of money......but since I'm EXPECTED to go, i'd better.
I've also decided that the only reason i still go to cross training is because i'm EXPECTED... if i wasn't working for the church I probably wouldn't go Sunday mornings either. I mean--- I just keep praying and no answers. This is LIFE it sucks. I just have to get used to it. I have no faith it will get better, but maybe god will make it that way.
I also decided how pointless it is to waste time talking to people about my problems when they don't change or get better... Why waste time?? Anyway, I've been working 16 hour days all week and i'm tired. I feel sick, in fact latly i havn't felt like eating either. I'll eat a candy bar or maybe a meal, but that's it. I have no want to eat. In fact I have no reason to really keep my body healthy... so why bother. Anyway, i probably wont be updating often since i don't have time and theres not really anything to write about, and i'm sure you all don't want to listen to me complain anymore...SOOOO.... I will be checking my e-mail though............ email@example.com